Summary for the month of October 2021

I burned out.

I don’t know if I’m going to keep going but definitely not for a while. And, if I ever do more new videos, I’m not going to bother trying to do livestreams whilst I record them. I think I’m completely done with live streaming now.

I don’t know what will happen to this blog if I completely stop. I might just leave it, or at some point I might fold it into my personal blog, which I’ve not done anything with for years now either. But, they could be together and “sit in solemn silence in a dull, dark dock, in a pestilential prison, with a life-long lock”.

But, I’m just done. I can’t even. My very first stream was way back in Sept 2014. I just can’t end up having been doing this shit for 10 years, admittedly off and on, and nothing to show for it. And that’s what it will be if I keep trying with it until 2024, just around the corner. I’m clearly not going to find an audience. I’m either not doing what people want to watch, or not willing to do what needs to be done to get people to watch what I do. I’m just smashing my head against concrete for no reason. So, preemptively before reaching a decade, and finally after almost a decade, fuck it.

Anyhow, instead of streaming and posting videos this last month, I tried for a lot of October to try to pay for seats at games online, but off-camera. The first one was a one-shot that went okay. The second one was a two-shot that went pretty great. I thought at that point maybe things would go well, so I tried to schedule and play a bunch more. But, no, things got shitty and nothing else worked out. So, yeah, still not able to play well with others, I guess, for whatever and various reasons.

Anyhow, I did a little bit of stuff on YouTube. What stuff I did was in a single live stream, now unlisted. But, I edited and posted some stuff from that as separate videos.

Not that it matters, but there it is. *shrug*

Summary for the month of September 2021

I did some stuff on YouTube. What stuff I did were live streams, now unlisted. I mostly tried to live stream as close to 6:66am Central on Tuesdays and Thursdays as I could manage, until I got tired or too hot, usually a few hours. Toward the end of the month I’ve gotten a bit burned out from the early morning live stream idea, and skipped the last Thursday to catch up on other stuff I needed to do, and I don’t know what’s going to come of all that but it’s feeling like it is changing again. Some portions of some live streams got posted as archives. Here’s what I posted of what I did.

Off camera, I participated in an introductory one-shot curated play session for Magpie Games’ Avatar Legends. (I’m signed up for another one, this time a two-shot, this weekend.) Went pretty well, and seems like a neato PbtA system, enough so that I’m curious about their other games, like Urban Shadows and even Root, which I skipped paying attention to because it didn’t seem like a game I’d ever play solo. But, the Avatar session was conducted on Foundry, and was on a day and time that really worked well for me; and turned out fun enough that I started to think I might try playing in groups again, maybe? If I do though, I doubt those will be recorded or broadcast, so it’ll all be off camera.

Yeah. That’s it. ::shrug::

Summary for the month of August 2021

I did some stuff on YouTube. What stuff I did were live streams, now unlisted. I mostly tried to live streamed at 6:66am Central on Thursdays, until I got tired or too hot, usually a few hours. I also did live stream randomly on some Tuesdays at 6:66am Central, but that was a fluke (or was it?!). I think I’ve now changed my mind and given up on Saturdays, preferring Thursdays as my most likely day streaming. I didn’t stream any video games this month. For some reason Geforce Now on my nVidia Shield won’t work correctly since the last update, and I haven’t been able to fix it. Some portions of some live streams got posted as archives. Here’s what I posted of what I did.

Yeah. That’s it. ::shrug::

Summary for the month of July 2021

I did some stuff on YouTube. What stuff I did were live streams, now unlisted. I mostly live streamed at 6:66am Central on Saturdays, until I got tired or too hot, usually a few hours; or the one weekend where I was getting a new roof installed so streamed later on Sunday instead. I also did live stream randomly on some Thursdays at 6:66am Central, but that was a fluke (or was it?!). Some portions of some live streams got posted as archives. Here’s what I posted of what I did.

Yeah. That’s it. ::shrug::

Summary for the month of June 2021

Welp. That’s it. After trying for a little while again, and having less than 1 viewer on average, I’ve finally given up on Twitch streaming permanently. I’ll still be posting videos on YouTube, I think, sometimes, maybe, and I’ve actually done a few live streams. However, I have only been doing live streams on YT set to become unlisted after they end, so they disappear, even if they don’t vanish completely. Catch ’em if you can randomly find me live, I guess.

Mostly that’s what’s new. I’m not sure if it makes much sense to keep this blog going, but then I haven’t been sure of that for a long time. IDEK.

Mostly this month has been about being too damned hot along with constant, pretty much daily, thunderstorms, flood warnings. There’s also been a few power outages and dealing with trying to get repairs to the house.

Other than a few live streams that are now unlisted, I’ve only posted 2 videos publicly, both in the last few days, and I’ve not done any actual tabletop / board game playing. Honestly, I start to get things ready and just give up, and have other things I have to do. Just not happening right now, still, again. Whatever.

Yeah. That’s it. ::shrug::

Summary for the month of May 2021

At the very end of April, I had brand new 1 Gbps Internet installed. I celebrated by actually live streaming for the first time since August 2019. Mostly I live streamed actual play of Ironsworn: Starforged but also played a lot of Destiny 2, and a little bit of No Man’s Sky and Outward.

My current tabletop streaming setup is pretty much the same as it was back in August 2019, but I did add, in May, a chroma background, which works mostly. My lighting is crappy, so it doesn’t work as well as it should, but it’s fine.

For live streaming games, I use to play on my Mac (iMac, Retina 5K, 27-inch, 4.2 Ghz i7, 64 GB RAM, Radeon Pro 580 8 GB), either native or using Parallels to run Windows on a virtual machine. I’ve given up on that. I picked up an extra screen that was on sale (Sceptre 27″ IPS QHD 144Hz), an Elgato HD 60 S+, and an HDMI splitter. Then I hooked all that up to my old Nvidia Shield TV, and plug in a keyboard and mouse. Then, I play games I own on Steam or Epic through GeForce Now on the device, and capture that to OBS on my Mac through the Elgato. It works pretty darned well, I must say. I also picked up a chat link cable, but, for some reason, that doesn’t work at all, so if I’m streaming I can’t yet use in-game voice chat in things like Destiny 2. The audio for chat has to go through the controller, but if I do that then the audio doesn’t reach OBS at all. But, that’s fine. I just listen to the audio routed through OBS as I play, without voice chat.

I signed up for the GeForce Now service, so I get priority access to virtual machines, and RTX is turned on. It’s pretty! And works better than trying to play on my Mac whilst also streaming from it. As someone without funds to get a real PC just to play games, this is an amazing solution. And the streaming works great, and there’s plenty of bandwidth for all of it!

Speed test 28apr2021 new fiber

The major downside, however, is that I really can’t play indie games anymore. I can only play what I have access to through GeForce Now, which is not small, but certainly precludes a lot of my library. But, what I do have access to includes a lot that I couldn’t even try to play before. So, it’s a trade off.

At some point this month, I bit the bullet and recreated a Twitter account. I found that I kept going back to Twitter to check on news from particular accounts, so I created a private account where I only have a list of those accounts I want news from; and I neither accept follows nor follow directly anyone else. It is my compromise. Without followers, I’m not tempted to lie to myself that tweets reach someone, that I’m not howling into an empty void. So, that’s where that is. (And, here I am howling into a different void. FML.)

Also, I heard about a replacement for the old Project Wonderful scrappy ad auction site, which I used to run over on Hermetic Library for a long time. I always liked being able to offer ad spaces that were more indie and open to people jumping in that wouldn’t really do so otherwise. So, I signed up and added an ad space to this blog through the ComicAd Network. The focus is less about books and writing, so doesn’t really work well for Hermetic Library like PW did, but the game and nerdy Odd Order blog does fit, even if there’s not much traffic. It’s neat to see what interesting and wacky stuff show up!

Yeah. What else?! Idek. That’s what comes to mind.


I started to stream tabletop / actual play every Thursday 4:20pm–6:66pm US/Central. Other streams were entirely random, but probably a lot more than I will stream in June. I’m vaguely thinking about scheduling a video game stream on Saturdays 6:66am–4:20pm, but I’m not sure yet. If I had people watching, I would take it more seriously, but that’s chicken-and-egg …

Twitch analytics May 2021

Anyhow, for May 2021, I had an average of 0.9 viewers, gained 1 follower, have 0 subscribers, made $4.03 ($4 from cheers, and 3¢ from ads), and streamed for a total of 58 hours. Sad, but true.

I decided to only archive my actual play videos to YouTube, so the video game streams will stay on Twitch and expire in a week or two after they are live.

Ironsworn: Starforged Actual Play Series

Here’s the series so far, archived to YouTube:

Here’s other videos and archived streams for May 2021

Summary for the period ending April 2021

My last summary was back in September 2019. And my last post was in March, 2020. Yeah, that was a while ago wasn’t it? I was on indefinite hiatus. But, I still did some things whilst I was gone. I don’t know that I’m back to posting, let alone regularly. But, I thought I’d post something.

So, here’s a summary of stuff since then up until the end of April 2021.

In the last week of April, I got 1 Gbps Internet to my house. I’ve gone from DSL, which I’ve had for the last couple years after the cable company doubled their rates, to brand new Fibre, recently installed to my neighborhood, and now have 1 Gpbs speed to my home. I worked at one of the first commercial ISPs back in the 90s, and we ran our entire business on 3 T1 (1.5Mbps each) and later upgraded to a T3 (54Mbps) on which we supported 10,000 customers. Back then, through work, I had upgraded from dialup to ISDN (128 Kbps) to an actual T1 to my home, and I thought that was blindingly fast! Hey, but, also, my very first modem even, when I was a kid, was 300 baud, or 0.3 Kbps, and I had to manually dial the phone and then unplug the cord from handset and swap it to the modem before the other side hung up! Now I’ve got a symmetrical 1 Gbps to just me and the cats. Wild.

And, I actually did a real live stream on Thursday over on Twitch. It’s also archived on YouTube. It was a first look and readthrough of the preview edition of Ironsworn: Starforged, a brand new sci-fi setting and rule set, that’s currently in crowdfunding.

I’m tentatively thinking about streaming every Thursday from 4:20pm until 6:66pm (which is 7:06pm in normal time telling). We’ll see how it goes! I never did get around to setting a regular schedule for streaming. It’s like the one box I never ticked. Yeah, I don’t know. Same stuff, just regularly.

One of the things that I missed about streaming was that it really, oddly enough, cut down on how much time and effort it took to create videos. I mean all I had to do was set up and film and I was done, hit a button and archive it to YouTube. Easy peasy. No going back and editing. No having to upload the video over DSL. The whole process for even a simple video took an entire day! That’s not even mentioning the fact that if the video was longer than 30 minutes it took longer to upload than letting it go overnight, and so I’d end up having to wait around not being able to use any Internet until it was done even the next day. Totally a shit show. And unpleasant. That and so many other reasons that just kept piling on, like the constant noise and drama from my next door neighbors, nonstop every day, including psycho-couple arguing and yelling all the time and that time when they had their power shut off and ran a generator in the backyard for over a month. I mean, fucking hell. There’s still constant noise over there, but it’s not quite so bad as it was. Small favours, I guess. But, even not streaming, it was still hard to record when there’s so much noise and bullshit, and the effort required far outweighed the resulting fun, right? Yeah. That’s just a taste. I don’t really want to keep talking about it anymore right now.

By the by, I switched my YouTube away from being Odd Order to just being me as Rigaroga, so the “friendly” link has changed, and I’m pretty sure I got that updated most places, except where I didn’t. Although this blog is still under the Odd Order name and domain, I’m probably at some point going to migrate that over to Rigargoa also. At some point that will probably happen. Odd Order never went anywhere and if it’s just me, then it should be just me! I can still do on my own blog, as myself under the guise as Rigaroga, anything I would have done with Odd Order, just not as an imaginary and non-existant collective Odd Order anymore. Oh well. It seemed like a nice idea at some point in the past but didn’t happen.

Also, I killed all my Rigaroga and Odd Order social media. There just wasn’t any point and no one was interacting with me, so I gave up howling into the void. I did go back and recreated a Twitter account, but only so that I could create a private list of accounts I found myself going back and checking for updates every once in a while; but, it’s private, has neither followers nor is actually following anyone. Let’s just act like that doesn’t exist at all. I made the choice not to engage in any of that anymore for the geeky stuff. That’s brings me back around to the blog, and I’m not sure what point it serves anymore, to be honest. I’ll keep thinking about that, but it is possible that just archiving important links, like the old anthologies, and dumping the rest, will be where I end up.

I don’t even know what all else to say. So much time has passed, and so many things, both huge and tiny, have happened … Let’s just move on from here and see what happens now? I mean, after this point, you know, where I point to all the things that happened in the time that I’m moving on from. D’oh!

Well, that’s enough from me for now.

Ironsworn Actual Play

Here’s videos and archived streams since September 2019

Summary for the month of September 2019

Here’s a summary of activity for the month of September 2019.

I started out the month by taking an indefinite hiatus from streaming live, and I’ve also stopped doing videos for video games for the foreseeable future.

Starting the month, I cancelled my expensive Internet link, and tried out a couple of alternatives. The first was a 4G LTE mobile hotspot which turned out to have only a fraction of 4G LTE speeds. Turns out a wired DSL line was faster, for some value of fast that isn’t. So, even still, I’m doing that. How strange to be on a “slow” line. I mean, there was a time when a T1 at 1Mbps was out of this world, both in speed and expense. I started out, way back when, with a 300 baud modem.

I’ve been able to upload videos, but some of the longer ones can take … quite a while. A two hour video uploading to YouTube took me 36 hour, not including editing and preparing, nor including time to restart when the upload fails. But, I’ve been managing to do some videos each week. Started some new games, such as Tunnel Goons (with the Shroom Goons jam), Adrift, and FATE, and have started some pre-play work on papercrafting for The Forgotten God campaign using D&D 5e Solo.

I also had a number of videos queued up for premieres through the first half of the month, which helped keep things going each week whilst I was struggling with options. There’s the ongoing Stranger Things related series, which is still going. I also premiered the series finale of “The Island with No Name” from the Seas of Vodari Quickstart.

That’s about it. No posts to the blog this month. Just a few actual play videos and social media posts. Might stop doing the blog soon. Idek.

Here’s videos and archived streams this last month

Summary for the month of August 2019

Here’s a summary of activity for the month of August 2019.

The final couple episodes posted to the archive of season 1 of Expedition: The roleplaying card game by FabricateIO. Through ten quests I leveled up three characters to retirement.

I also continued playing D&D 5e solo with characters from the Stranger Things themed D&D Starter Set. I actually added one more, Max’s Zoomer, an archetype of Rogue, to the other five. But I continued with them using the first of three linked 4e modules themed around the Shadowfell, starting with H1 Keep on the Shadowfell. I’ve been calling that adventure Keep on the Upside Down, and the first have posted to the archive, while the rest I’ve streamed will post through mid-September, once a week. I streamed through Episode 7.

I finished streaming episodes of season 1, The Island with No Name, the introductory adventure in the Seas of Vodari Quickstart Guide. I got that because I was a backer of the crowdfunding effort, and played it because it seemed like a fun thing to do next.

For Seas of Vodari, instead of playing a bunch of full characters, I decided to try one character with some sidekicks, using mostly the Sidekick rules from D&D Essentials Kit but also considering the Unearthed Arcana Sidekicks rules as well. For the most part it worked well. It took a little while to get used to the sidekicks, and to stop treating them as full characters, instead of as support characters. And, a few episodes in I realized I needed to add an additional, third, sidekick. Even then, through the entire playtest, I feel like I was very underpowered. I suspect that if I play using sidekicks again, I’ll treat the suggested levels for encounters as actually n+1; so that if an encounter thinks characters should be level 1, I really need to be at least level 2 when playing solo even with a good roster of sidekicks. Ultimately, it was a pretty harrowing adventure with lots of danger faced! But, it was super fun to get to play the character I played and I really liked the funny, silly sidekicks I created. I’m actually sad to see that come to an end and felt bad for what I put them through!

I’ve got prep notes for tabletop RPG things I’ve been thinking about doing solo … but I’ve made a really big change recently that means I won’t be streaming anymore.

I actually did also stream a few video games this last month, so those are listed below too. But, I’m pretty much done with doing videos of video games, I think. Just no one ever watched them except for me (watching myself play a game in a video I already played when I streamed it is strange and silly!) so there’s not really any point to it. I always liked getting to check out new indie games when devs or publishers sent me a key, but also felt bad when I streamed them but had no audience watching. So, yeah. Going to let that go.

I did keep doing re-run marathons on Twitch through last month with all the videos that hadn’t expired. All in all, hanging out for 17 hours two times a week by myself commenting on myself playing was a bit much. I did see a lot of unique viewers and so forth, but not really any increase in people following my profile or hanging out to chat much.

I did see a few people come to my D&D 5e solo streams and hang out, which was pretty fun, and we joked about things and thought things out in realtime. I’ll miss that now that I’m not streaming. But, as great as that was, here’s the thing: I’m currently seeing more people checking out my actual play videos on YouTube in 48 hours than check out my streams on Twitch through the entire month. Still not a lot, but it’s a big difference! It seems like people find me on YouTube a lot easier than on Twitch.

A couple months ago, the promotional pricing on my Internet expired, and I called to cancel; but, I was told I could have a new promotional pricing that was only $1 more than it was. Okay, cool. Only that never got applied to my account. I felt lied to, to be honest.

There are two companies in this town working on symmetrical gigabit fibre but neither are on my street yet. They each charge about $100/mo which is a lot. But Spectrum/Charter charges $91/mo for a soft 400/25, and in comparison that’s just bonkers. When it was only $70/mo I could justify it. Not at $91/mo.

So, that’s it. I cancelled my overpriced high speed Internet service at the end of August. That means I won’t be streaming again for … who knows how long? Permanent hiatus until further notice. I just can’t justify the expense, and the only reason I justified the expense to myself was that I needed it to keep streaming. Without one leg, the other falls too.

I’ll probably try to record and post more actual play videos as premieres to my YouTube and Twitch channels to see if I keep it up. If I can get them uploaded. I’ll try it out, and I’ve got until mid-September queued up from past streams to tide people over until I do figure out a way, if it can be done well enough.

No longer thought of myself as a streamer even though I was streaming, and now I’ll not even be streaming. But, I may still post videos as premieres. We’ll see how it goes from here!

But, either way, that’s my summary of things through the end of August.

Here’s videos and archived streams this last month

Summary for the month of July 2019

Here’s a summary of activity for the month of July 2019.

The announced July 4th release date for the new rules and app for Weave by Monocle Society came and went with resounding silence. Eventually the app was updated, and the new rules made available, but only via a link posted on their Discord. However, the old rules are still what’s on their website, and the app has some of the same old issues along with totally new showstopper bugs. The app isn’t just a companion app, but it’s required to play. So, when I create a character and the character doesn’t save to the season, that’s a showstopper. Also, the new combined rules are a lot more complicated than the simplified ruleset I was using, but I can’t even try them out because the app is so broken. The app also doesn’t seem to have all the features that were supposed to be available, such as a playset editor, so I can’t while away the time making a new playset either. I’ve given up trying to play Weave for now. Maybe given up for good. It’s a shame, really, because season 1 was really fun and full us surprises to play. But, in the end, I can’t play what I can’t play.

I’ve finished season 1 of Expedition: The roleplaying card game by FabricateIO. Through ten quests I leveled up three characters to retirement. Mostly I did fun silly quests, but there ended up being a funny narrative I built for myself to tell them as a linked story. The final quest was pretty great, a dungeon crawl, and a suitable conclusion for the characters. Cool. I’m looking forward to starting up a new season with new characters and trying out some of the many other quests. Also, I keep thinking about looking into writing a quest or two myself, but haven’t gotten around to that yet. But, the last couple of episodes will post to my YouTube channel in August, although I already played them. If you want to watch them now, just head over to my past broadcasts on Twitch while they’re still there, before they expire.

I also finished season 1, comprised of 4 episodes, of the Hunt for the Thessalhydra from the Stranger Things themed D&D Starter Set. This was my first ever time trying to play D&D 5e solo! I feel like it worked pretty well; though I did lose track of some of cool abilities the 5 characters had available. Too much to track even though I used the Looney Pyramids for minis and Arcane Library Combat Cards to help me out; also I got the adventure on D&D Beyond. But, that was exciting to try.

I could continue the series by using the 4e modules themed around the Shadowfell, starting with H1 Keep on the Shadowfell. I’m not sure yet.

If I do more Stranger Things, I’ll keep all the characters, and probably add a Rogue Zoomer named Max. But, for other series, I’ll definitely tend toward one character with some sidekicks, instead of a party of full character sheets to keep track of whilst playing.

I’ve got prep notes for tabletop RPG things I’ve been thinking about doing solo, and now realize I’ve gone insane. Forgotten Realms (Beginner, Essentials & Ghosts of Saltmarsh), Ultraviolet Grasslands [also, also], Seas of Voldari, Humblewood

… but I’m still not sure what to do next! I guess I’ll know when I know, and then I’ll be doing it. I’m looking forward to the next thing … whichever thing that turns out to be!

Also, I actually streamed a few video games this last month! But, no posts other than the previous summary.

This last month I have started to do re-run marathons on Twitch. I’ve been doing a Sunday Solo Tabletop Roleplaying Rerun Marathon and a Tuesday Video Game Stream Rerun Marathon. I’ll keep doing those as long as there’s past broadcasts that haven’t expired.

And, that’s yet another month off the grill, toasted and sliced and presented on a pretty plate.

Here’s videos and archived streams